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Why I decided to quit my job and move 200 miles to do a PhD

Next month will see me out of paid employment, packing a suitcase, picking up my life and leaving my home in the balmy south-east to start a new life in the great unknown…the north of England! What could induce a young professional in her mid-twenties do such a thing? What indeed…

Last week I had a wonderful send-off from my paid job as a Web Editor after handing in my notice the month before. In just a few weeks I’ll be about 200 miles away from my long-term partner and all my family and friends, in York. Once there I’ll only have a finite amount of savings upon which to live. I’ll have to apply my little bottom off for any and all funding I can find, and might get a career development loan or a part-time job. Or start busking.

On paper this sounds like madness, I know. Why would I give up financial stability and a successful career in editing, especially with the economic climate being what it is? Why would I leave everyone I love to move to a city of strangers? The answer is that I’m giving it all up to do a PhD in Medieval Studies…! I’m full of an excited fear that makes the blood in my veins sing. I am alive. I am on a precipice. There is no certainty that this will all work out. This is the unnerving leap into the beyond that makes life an adventure, rather than monotonous apathy.

I’m sure some people must think I’m bonkers (although everyone’s been polite enough to refrain from saying that to my face) but there wasn’t a single moment’s hesitation about what I was going to do when I received my offer of a place at York, which was my university of choice. Although some tough thinking did follow later. But for others out there, the decision may not come so easily, and I hope that this post might speak to you. I’m not going to advise you to make the choice that I did, because that might not necessarily work best for you, but I am going to be honest about the reasons for the choice I made. There is a lot to consider when you make such a huge life-change, especially when you’re in your mid- to late-twenties, everyone around you seems to be getting mortgages and buying houses, marrying and having babies and your mum delicately points out that you might be at your physiological peak (‘your eggs aren’t getting any younger!’). You might find yourself wondering one cold blustery night as I did: Am I doing the right thing? For me the answer was a resounding YES! And this is why.

Financial stability is a myth… especially now.

I was lucky enough to get full-time editorial work in publishing the month after I graduated from my undergraduate degree, which also happened to be the month before the recession hit the UK in full force. I am well aware that I was one of the fortunate ones. Since then I’ve had steady editorial roles with just a few weeks out of work here and there between posts. But… In all that time (about five years) I’ve only been on temporary contracts. Granted, they were long temporary contracts (9 months to a year) and yes, they did all get extended or become ‘permanent’ (I’ll tell you why that word is in inverted commas momentarily), but they still meant I didn’t feel confident about where my money would be coming from in one, two or five years’ time – not the ideal conditions in which to get a mortgage. Plus if I wanted to start a family, I wouldn’t have any access to maternity pay. Luckily I didn’t want either of these things at that point in my life, but you get the picture.

In fact, the only job I had that got made permanent (before the one I just left, which also did… eventually) turned out to be anything but. The company I was in decided to have a huge restructure just a few months later. Most of my department was made redundant, including me. This experience taught me that financial stability is a myth. There are no longer ‘jobs for life’ – the worker of today has to be extremely agile and flexible. One very good friend of mine who was made redundant from the same department as me has just been made redundant from another job less than a year later because they’re restructuring too! It’s no reflection on her abilities whatsoever – she’s incredibly talented and has plenty of excellent experience – it’s a reflection on the mentality that many companies seem to have at the moment. Restructuring is in vogue. So if you forgo your dream because of so-called financial stability, whether that dream is to complete a PhD and start a career in academia like me, or to open a chicken farm in Tasmania, then you might live to regret it. More money can always be made, but a dream once put aside might be hard to pick up again later on in life. This leads me on to my next reason…

Fewer responsibilities means greater liberty.

Some people have asked me why I don’t continue in my editorial career and leave the PhD until a later date, after I’ve done the whole buying a house and having children thing while I’ve got a job. This sounds eminently sensible, non? And so it would be, if these were my priorities. And if jobs were stable, which they don’t seem to be anymore (see point above). Perhaps my priorities will be a house and children, one day. But at the present moment my priority is myself and my own development. Besides, when/if I do eventually get a mortgage or have children, how could I justify spending such a huge amount of time, money and effort on something so arguably selfish as doing a PhD? It would undoubtedly be much harder, if not impossible, to justify. No, the time is now.

Straddling two worlds means that you might not be able to give 100% to either of them.

I worked full-time whilst completing a Masters part-time over the course of two years. I worked because I didn’t want to get out a loan to pay for my Masters and I was making decent money. I enjoyed my job too. Plus I was thinking in practical terms: I’d never done a Masters before – I might hate it. If I found that I did hate it (which quite honestly I didn’t expect to happen, but you never know), then I’d still have my career in publishing to fall back on. This was sensible and definitely the right thing for me to do at the time. However, it did mean that I felt constantly overworked, had little time to spare for leisure activities, including seeing friends and family, and felt guilty every moment I didn’t spend working or studying. There simply weren’t enough hours in the day or days in the week, and I felt exhausted quite a lot of the time. Plus I got made redundant slap-bang in the middle of my Masters, so had to dedicate quite a lot of time to job-hunting that I definitely would have preferred to spend studying. A lot of the time I felt like I was split down the middle and straddling two worlds: the professional world of publishing and that of medieval academia. I often felt that I couldn’t dedicate 100% of my energies to either one, and I’m sure both must have suffered slightly as a result.

Those two years made me realise that I had to make a choice. I knew I wanted to do a PhD, and yes, I could conceivably do one part-time over a period of around six years while I continued in my editorial career, but what sort of human wreck would I be by the end? Also, how would this division of energies affect the quality of both my PhD and career? I’m sure it wouldn’t be so bad if my professional career was in medieval publishing or something similar, but alas, it was on completely different aspects of education, spanning from the Arden Shakespeare to hair and beauty vocational courses. No. I knew that I had to go whole-hog and do this PhD thing right, or not do it at all. I know that not everyone has the liberty to make this choice, and I’m sure that many people must complete PhDs part-time whilst continuing in their career and do a fantastic job of both. I admire those people more than I can say. But I just know that it isn’t for me.

Life’s too short not to follow your dreams.

Last but by no means least is my most important reason for packing up my life and moving to York to do a PhD. Call me a romantic, call me a dreamer (I can be both at times), but as far as any of us know we only get one life. Wouldn’t it be a terrible shame not to spend it doing something that you love, if you get the opportunity to?

I love studying, and ever since completing my undergraduate degree I have loved all things medieval – especially anything Arthurian. I did a medieval Masters. I’ve spoken at medieval conferences and love attending them purely to listen and learn. I’m a member of the International Arthurian Society. I gobble up modern as well as medieval Arthurian literature. I watch documentaries on medieval topics and read medieval texts in my spare time, as well as doing my own research for my blog and for my own amusement. I visit castles, cathedrals and ruins to immerse myself in medieval places. I’ve found my life’s passion and have the opportunity to embark on the next stage of trying to turn it into a career – how could I not at least try? One more happy person in the world has got to be a good thing, right? Nothing would give me greater pleasure than to pass these wonderful texts and this rich history on to the next generation, and maybe even find out something new about our medieval forebears.

So there we are. I am fortunate enough to have a very supportive family and a partner who also has academic aspirations and understands my reasons for leaving him for the next three years (thank goodness, otherwise that really would take some explaining!). I know I couldn’t do this without them, and owe them so very much. I might not succeed. It could all go horribly wrong, and I could end up back in London within a year, penniless and disillusioned. But at least I would have tried, and wouldn’t be stuck wondering ‘what if?’ for the rest of my life. Fortune favours the brave, so they say. Here’s hoping she does. In the meantime if anyone has any freelance editorial work – please send it my way!

Have you made sacrifices to pursue your academic interests? Are you in a similar position, or have you been in the past? What did you do? I would love to hear from you in the comments below!

32 thoughts on “Why I decided to quit my job and move 200 miles to do a PhD

  1. I was going to say – if you’re back in a year, I can’t see you being disillusioned – you will be wiser for having tried, but then you went ahead and said it. Couldn’t agree more with a lot of the points you’ve made – especially about doing it now while unencumbered by house or offsprint.

    That editor girl being made redundant again sounds great! People should definitely think about offering her a job…

  2. Hi Bex!
    What a wonderful post! I think you are doing such an amazing thing and I hope it goes well for you. I still want to do my PhD but have had to put it on hold whilst I gain more practical experience. Unfortunately this meant moving away from all friends and family but for my dream job! As you say it’s one of the hardest decisions to make and doesn’t feel real until the first day but you won’t regret it!! I didn’t and I’m sure you won’t.
    I really hope it goes well for you- congratulations !!!

  3. I love this post Bex! You are an amazing human being and I think you’ve found the perfect calling. I wish you the best of luck in beautiful York 🙂 xoxox a tiny message all the way from Canada …

  4. Go for it! It sounds like you have everything planned. You’re brilliant, you’ll have a great time doing your PhD, and even if it doesn’t “work out,” you can always fall back on your useful real-world skill thingies that everyone else seems so concerned about. Freelance editing work is a good plan–that’s what I did while getting my MA. It’s great that your family and friends support you. You’ll have the rest of your life to make money and pay off student loans, but you’ll only have a small amount of time where you’re free to pack up and pursue your dreams.

    You are anything but crazy. In a few years, I’ll hopefully be quitting several jobs (I’m afraid to give a number!) and moving nearly 5000 miles to enter a medieval lit PhD program. Think of it as a pilgrimage! 🙂

  5. I would say go for it, you are so right when you say that life is an uncertain business. I could a tale unfold… but I won’t because it’s boring. Suffice it to say that you are only ever as good as your last heartbeat. One minute you are quaffing mead in Camelot, and suddenly a large green geezer on a horse rides in, and before you know it, you’ve “graythed up Gringolet” and you are werring with Wodwos that wone in the knarres. So if you get the chance to do something you want to do, do it and do it with all your heart, might and main. I feel very envious of you as I never really got the chance to do postgrad in any way shape or form, but then it was a different world, back then; the internet was only on two afternoons a week, in black and white, and Ena Sharples was still trapped under the viaduct. Good luck with parking in York, by the way – the people who run York would much rather you parked in Lytham St Annes and caught a bus.

  6. Good luck! I’ve just come across your blog and I look forward to reading more of your posts. I’m doing a phd in a completely different field (ecology) but my first love is medieval/ancient/romantic/classical everything…so I’ll enjoy stopping by your site! 🙂

  7. Hi Bex I admire you so much! And wish you all the best. It’s must be so exciting for you and, for what it’s worth, I think you are doing the right thing, while you are young I mean. I loved reading about your passion for all things Medieval. Hope you keep up your blog and let us know how you are getting on with your PhD. Good luck!

  8. I’d be concerned only if all other graduate students put as much thought into their decisions as you apparently have. Sadly many do PhDs because they don’t know how to get a job in the ‘real world.’ I wish you all the luck in the world!

  9. Very Inspiring article. I am pretty much in the same situation, left my job and my family like you only I travelled much further to do my PhD….. I am optimistic it will be worth it in the end…IT HAS TO BE!

  10. Thank you so much everyone for the overwhelmingly supportive comments. I’m now sixth months into the PhD and am about to write a blog post to update you on my progress. So far, so good! 🙂

    1. I was reading this post and I can tell you.. I almost cried!
      Currently I am working in the industry: well paid, well recognized, opportunities to grow…) Nevertheless.. it is not what I want to do!
      My hobby is to study! I can spend the whole weekend just studying! I want to make research, make a phD and work in the academic world.
      Maybe I am getting old (30 in 6 months..) but I see clear my path.
      Right now.. I am afraid. How can you explain to all the people around you that you want to change your succesful career for another one which could be a failure?
      But as you said.. life is one and we should try to get our dreams come true.
      Thank you

  11. Hi Bex,

    I’m having a quit similar process at the moment. Quit job and pursue PhD. The PhD project is my passion, but the job is not although I got a good pay. My boss is very reluctant to let me go while the environment of work is not motivating at all. After reading your blog, I believe now that pursuing your dream is the key and yes, money can be made!

    Thanks, you’re very inspiring.

  12. Bex I have to say well done for making this decision. I’m sure it was a lengthy and difficult process but hopefully it all fell into place once you were up and going!. I am in the same process myself and have only come to terms with what ive just done. get onto a PhD programme and hand in my notice (about 2 weeks ago). Ive been happy landing a pretty good job about a year ago yet my ambition to do a PhD has always been there. I’ve finally decided to move on and commit to a a PHd in a subject i’ve always dreamt of doing and is sponsored by a company i’ve always hoped to work for and thats just what I’ll be doing in 2 weeks time! Well done and hope it goes well for the both of us!

    1. I honestly haven’t looked back. Doing a PhD has involved a lot of sacrifice and heartache, but the rewards have been so much greater. It’s opened doors I never would have dreamed of. All the sacrifices were so worth it 🙂

      And congratulations to you on your decision! Not only that but a sponsored PhD – WOW! Sounds wonderful – please do check back in a few months into your studies and let us know how you’re getting on.

      Best of luck! 🙂

      B x

    1. After 1 year and a half searching everywhere, applying to a lot of different places.. I finally got the chance to enter into a PhD program, starting in June. I am so excited!

  13. Hi!

    Just wanted to say thanks for writing the above, I’m in a very similar situation funnily enough; i’m actually leaving London to start a PhD in York aswell! I’m obviously looking forward immensely to the PhD but don’t want to move from London or move away from my friends!

    But yeah, wanted to say thanks as this article has left me inspired 🙂

    Hope you’re PhD went well.

      1. Oh how bizarre that you’re making the same migration that I did! What’s your PhD on? Is it medieval too? Congratulations!

        You’ll make friends – don’t worry! When I first moved to York I found it very small compared to London, and I really couldn’t warm to it – but this was mostly because I was long distance from my ex, and then we eventually broke up, so I was just generally miserable and projecting onto York! But when I met my partner, York sort of blossomed and unfolded, and I realised how awesome it is! It’s still not London, of course, but it certainly has its own charm, and the good thing is that London is only 2 hours away by train – and it’ll still be there whenever you want to visit! 🙂

        I’m in the final year of my PhD now, and I’m not at York anymore – my supervisor got a new job at the University of Bristol and poached me from York, so I’m at Bristol now, and living in Salisbury 🙂

        Best of luck! Would love to hear how you get on!

      2. Yeah, it’s odd! My PhD is on Computational Immunology/Bioinformatics, that’s where we differ! Thanks!

        I was very surprised when I went to York as I thought it was an amazing place! Originally I hadn’t planned on leaving London but after I was offered an interview, and saw how nice the city was, I couldn’t refuse really.

        I have some friends who went to UoB for their undergraduate degrees, Bristol’s a fun place, hope you’re enjoying it!

        Good luck with the final year of your PhD!

  14. I think you are amazing. I just quit a high paying job yesterday to pursue my PhD. Everyone at work thought I was crazy with the bad economy in Nigeria. But I look to the future and know it will be brighter and surer as like yourself, I love academia. Thank you for this article. Really uplifted me. As I tell others, you can get jobs but you only have one dream. Make sure you do your best to actualize it. You never know where it will take you. Xoxo.

    1. Dear Chichi,


      This is really exciting news, and I think that your wonderful attitude will definitely take you as far as you want to go.

      What is your PhD in?

      Best of luck! Check back in when you can to let us know how you’re getting on.

      Keep following your dreams!


      1. Thank you. Pharmaceutical Science… About to start. Really appreciate your kind words.

      2. Thank you dear…congratulations. I am quite anxious😐 but I know I gotta pass through this stage. Please keep in touch. Would really love to hear more from you. Xoxo.. .

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